I opened you the last door on the day of your birthday.
A door that, for me, was a way to either give you a glimpse of reinstate a conversation or for me to fully and definitely understand that you do not give a damn.
Since the exchange was so brief and vague, I will go for the first of the two options.
But that was useful for me. I am a slow learner, and I know that, but I am happy I got to the part where I understand.
I did what I thought it was the right thing but there is no interest on the other side.
I will archive what happened as a summer fling and go on with this dull life I have.
Once again, I fooled myself thinking I, too, could have someone to care for me and to have a decent person in my life. Someone to share laugh, and opinions about everyday life.
Maybe it's just that I do not bring enough to the table.
Maybe I am not worthy of a decent person on my side.
But this is it, I should move on.
Even the super minimum expectation I had from the guy I met in person after years of talking at the phone only at the Office Party of last Sunday went away quickly and it was a complete "nulla di fatto"
Move on, I know I have to move on..
It's just that I was not even considering dating or having someone in my life again -- I am not in any dating app, or actively looking for company. I had forgotten how good it can be to feel there is someone thinking of you or actually having someone for going out.
I will wait for the right time to pass and then make an HIV test since he was not showing any concern in having sex without protection with an unknow woman.
Geez, wonder if it even crossed his mind there was a little possibility he got me pregnant, but he probably did not consider it a thing to worry about -- not his problem. right???